Saying goodbye to friends is the hardest thing to do. I often wish that things could, and would always stay the same, or an improved, fantastical version of the same. but it would be incredibly sad to never grow up. and I'm proud to be learning this, even though in the hardest way possible.

whatever.

I miss so many people and so many things. I wish I could be surrounded by them all the time, but I don't think I could replace all those good times. So it's probably best to just get on with it and be glad that those people still exist somewhere.
I am so grateful for funny people.

un jour j'espère que je rêve en français
6 things that have made me happy this week:

  1. Kind words and box of swiss miss (my favourite 'ho-cho' in the world) from Lauren. I know technically this was last week, but I re-read the letter today and sipped swiss miss and was again touched.
  2. Notting Hill - Not because it's funny, or because Hugh Grant is cute, but because it gives me hope that Ryan Gosling/Ryan Adams/Conor Oberst/Johnny Depp might walk into my work place one day and find my stammering English-ness endearing, fall head over heels, walk me through a park, give me a painting and confess his/their love. we would live happily ever after.
  3. Going to the Doctors - sometimes it is all you need to have a kind, but indifferent stranger confirming what you already know and telling you point-blank what to do about it. refreshing.
  4. Walking.
  5. http://www.thesatorialist.blogspot.com/ ... i especially love the stylish old men and the Europeans on their bikes. I firstly would love a new bike, and secondly, would love somewhere stylish to ride it. one day i will live in Paris.
  6. 'Man on Wire' - this documentary is truly wonderful, and I would recommend to anyone who needs uplifitng. watch it. Phillipe Petit is the most enigmatic and inspiring story teller. his acheivements have really lifted my spirits this week, plus, the documentary itself is just perfect.

sunday walking


me and my 'gay best friend'