'if i were to marry a vegetable, i'd probably marry a sweet potato. but then, i'd find it really hard to be faithful'

-probably the most profound thought i've had today. god i need to get some education in my brain.

(which i just realised i spelled 'brian' by accident. all time low.)

I miss my dog an insane amount.

110 Manor House Road

My new, slightly lived in, messy home.

my name should be Earl

one of these days, karma is going to come round and throw me a frickin' big bone.

I have been thinking a lot recently about lieing and liars. So much, that I have written down countless notes on the subject, and following my usual train of thought writing techniques, have had to spend some time sifting through my views and ideas to come up with anything, or something that means anything..to me anyway.
Everyone lies. whether it is merely an exaggeration of reality to make ourselves appear better to others, or just spinning a general web to hide ourselves from the truth.
The only real thing I have to say on the subject (after a sickening realisation, that I and everyone else tells casual lies from time to time) is that I genuinely feel great sadness for those who feel they must cover up who they are/where they are/what they are doing to those they love the most. They must feel so lonely within their lies, as they pull the wool thicker and tighter around those who know them the least..they must be blinding themselves also..but do they know it? To lie is the most self-destructive path you can take..there is always someone who must know the truth. As important as having secrets, and secret keeping is, someone always loves you enough to know the truth.
Despite a great reluctance to place all cards face up on the table, I believe this can be the most gratifying action for some people. Everyone must have some qualities they can be proud of, and some which they cannot be proud of, but the idea of having friends that don't or wouldn't take me/you, for who you/I am is destroying. and should be removed immediately.

sometimes being bored is the most fantastic and desirable thing to be. i am devoting my day to being bored in the nicest possible way.

things i have done today:

• Had a big warm bubble bath with my love duck and The Book Thief
• Laid on my bed and listened to Ryan Adams whilst thinking of nothing in particular
• Written imaginary letters, yet not actually put pen to paper
• Painted my nails, lathered myself in cocoa butter and snuggled in my byu blanket
• Read the paper with a cup of tea and a sandwich.

things i will do today:

• Put on my lazy clothes and watch a good film.
• Read The Book Thief some more
• Tea, Tea, Tea
• go to work

Listen up you.

The Harder They Come - Willie Nelson feat. Ryan Adams
Wild Child - Lou Reed
Hey There, Mrs Lovely - Ryan Adams
Other Towns & Cities - Camera Obscura
Carry On - J.J Cale
Our Bovine Public - The Cribs
Transmission - Joy Division