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Itchy Feet.
I really fancy a new adventure. I always feel this way when something has happened, or not happened, and the future looks slightly misty. Cryptic I know, but also slightly hard to explain. Restlessness creeps up on me, and often it's too late to do much about it other than daydream myself into new places. I can't remember not being happy whilst embarking on an adventure, whether around the world, or just a day trip; for me, in retrospect the low points come as part of the up points, and they all merge together to form a colourful and warm bulletin board of memories. I know that like all things, adventures don't come without dramas, I suppose that's what makes them real..and maybe that's what I love so much about them. I crave them. Changes in scenery, people, air even. It perhaps is really just a craving for new things, new thoughts and ideas, new stories, the ability to form new opinions so that one day I can work out where I really want to be and what I want to do with myself.
Bits from my book (3)
For the first time in her life she turned with violence against nature. Elk-hounds and rose bushes were about her in profusion. But elk-hounds and rose bushes can none of them read. It is a lementable oversight on the part of Providence which had never struck her before. Human beings alone are thus gifted. Human beings had become necessary.
Orlando - Virginia Woolf
Orlando - Virginia Woolf
Veganism. Day 14.
The time has finally come when I can officially put down the soya and pick up the milk, exhange the houmous for the philadelphia and once again satisfy my sweet tooth's endless cravings. I know that my blog postings dramatically came to an end after a week of journaling - i think virginia woolf would be most disappointed at my poor effort - however, i feel this was mainly due to a lack of inspiration more than anything else. Being a vegan as a student proved incredibly difficult, well, maybe not difficult, i'd say more tiresome. not wanting to splash out on thousands of extravagant ingredients for a two week experiment meant that often my meals were roast vegetable and sauce based, not that i didnt vary the ways in which i ate the veggies, but, you know, a roast parsnip is indeed, just a roast parsnip. Although my incredibly bloated stomach has slightly subsided, i havnt noticed any decrease in my weight, disappointingly, i have however acquired a rather strange and slightly alarming case of the shakes, whereby my fingers quiver as though i have aged 80 years in 14 days. I am not sure why this has happenend, to be fair, it could be lack of sleep, but if it were to do with my diet, i would not be surprised if it was through lack of sugar. whilst typing this I have indulged in some rather splendid Jazzles, my favourite white chocolate treats, and althought the taste is sublime, the sugar is making me shake more and i do feel incredibly sick. same gos for milk in my tea, and too much of any form of dairy (I'm writing this a day late, i did infact cease to be vegan yesterday)
Despite all these things, (perhaps i should have stated the positive first) I have enjoyed being vegan, it is kind of exciting, in a sad way, to experiment with diet etc, how have i coped without chocolate? absolutely no problem. How much have i missed fish? a lot, but not enough to send me spiralling into despair. I think removing anything from your diet is easy if you have willpower, which i dont. the only reason i found it easy is because it was a challenge and i had a goal, if i'd condemned myself to suffer a long vegan life, i would have failed miserably..but i am interested to see if i now cut down on sugar etc and continue to eat ryvita, or nuts and raisins as a snack. unlikely - i couldnt do that to Cadbury's profit margins. However, I will say that I have enjoyed the challenge, it has been interesting and increased my awareness regarding my usually awful eating habits. May I remember this for the future and not become carried away by the niggling part of my brain which tricks me into gorging myself with sugary snacks. We shall see.
Despite all these things, (perhaps i should have stated the positive first) I have enjoyed being vegan, it is kind of exciting, in a sad way, to experiment with diet etc, how have i coped without chocolate? absolutely no problem. How much have i missed fish? a lot, but not enough to send me spiralling into despair. I think removing anything from your diet is easy if you have willpower, which i dont. the only reason i found it easy is because it was a challenge and i had a goal, if i'd condemned myself to suffer a long vegan life, i would have failed miserably..but i am interested to see if i now cut down on sugar etc and continue to eat ryvita, or nuts and raisins as a snack. unlikely - i couldnt do that to Cadbury's profit margins. However, I will say that I have enjoyed the challenge, it has been interesting and increased my awareness regarding my usually awful eating habits. May I remember this for the future and not become carried away by the niggling part of my brain which tricks me into gorging myself with sugary snacks. We shall see.
Veganism. Day 7.
Eugh, eugh and double eugh. I am so bloated, I can't even look at my tummy in the mirror, every part of me feels like a big balloon. luckily, google searching tells me this is normal, and to drink water, so i am downing it by the pint. how depressing, i thought i'd feel lighter than air, i havnt even eaten anything crappy in a week. what's the deal with that?! hopefully in a day or two it will go down, but til then i'm wearing everything floaty, thank heavens it's spring and sunny and i can get away with that.
i look more like Tweedle-dee or Tweedle-dum than Alice.
Veganism. Day 6.
Eugh. Today I feel as if I had a bag of rocks clattering around in my tummy. So heavy and full, without eating anything. What's the problem with being constantly full? I feel constantly sluggish! - Also, I crave something sweet and comforting. Having Ryvita, or roasted veggies as a snack hardly rocks my world! I think perhaps today was worse as I wasn't feeling very well, and therfore just wanted things which would make me feel better. I suppose the key is just lots of water (and lemsip) and hopefully sunday will be better.
(Sorbet and Alice in Wonderland - who could possibly moan about that!)
(Sorbet and Alice in Wonderland - who could possibly moan about that!)
Veganism. Day 4 & 5.
I think my good intentions to keep a regular, daily blog were a bit ambitious.
I am beginning to learn that being a Vegan only really works if one removes oneself from all social situations. Last night we had a dinner party for 10, everyone had meat lasagne (which i wouldn't have been able to eat anyway) so i made my fellow vegan housemate and I a vegan thai green curry (sweet potato, butternut squash, peppers etc) with saffron and ginger rice. although this was delicious and i enjoyed it more than i would have a lasagne, even a vegetarian one, the unwanted attention, constant questions of 'why the hell are you doing this' - followed by 'screw that, i could never even try to give up meat', even before i'd bothered to explain the ethics behind it, drove me slightly mad. in fact no one really wanted to hear the whys and wherefores anyway, so i didnt bother exaplaining.
had the dinner party not been at my own house, i would have felt extremely rude giving my host the extensive (and it is EXTENSIVE) list of things I can not eat. seriously, if i had a soya bean for every ingredient i am excluding from my diet, my veganism would be lifelong. I know it is important to stick to one's views and ideals, but to me, being a vegan is a rather large limitation. What could I eat in a resteraunt for example? - rice?! well, thats exciting! Perhaps to me, veganisim is a prospect that only can exist where possible, if i can leave out the ingredients, well..why not?! but sometimes these things appear to just be unavoidable, and turning down supper invitations is just a challenge too hard to accept.
I am beginning to learn that being a Vegan only really works if one removes oneself from all social situations. Last night we had a dinner party for 10, everyone had meat lasagne (which i wouldn't have been able to eat anyway) so i made my fellow vegan housemate and I a vegan thai green curry (sweet potato, butternut squash, peppers etc) with saffron and ginger rice. although this was delicious and i enjoyed it more than i would have a lasagne, even a vegetarian one, the unwanted attention, constant questions of 'why the hell are you doing this' - followed by 'screw that, i could never even try to give up meat', even before i'd bothered to explain the ethics behind it, drove me slightly mad. in fact no one really wanted to hear the whys and wherefores anyway, so i didnt bother exaplaining.
had the dinner party not been at my own house, i would have felt extremely rude giving my host the extensive (and it is EXTENSIVE) list of things I can not eat. seriously, if i had a soya bean for every ingredient i am excluding from my diet, my veganism would be lifelong. I know it is important to stick to one's views and ideals, but to me, being a vegan is a rather large limitation. What could I eat in a resteraunt for example? - rice?! well, thats exciting! Perhaps to me, veganisim is a prospect that only can exist where possible, if i can leave out the ingredients, well..why not?! but sometimes these things appear to just be unavoidable, and turning down supper invitations is just a challenge too hard to accept.
Veganism. Day 3.
Nothing unusual to report today. Other than I went out for lunch, and being posed the question 'What do you fancy' - my reply was 'Anything not Vegan - Please'. I know this is naughty, but eating out being my only respite from houmous and roasted veg, i couldn't resist. so we went Yo Sushi. Thank God for the Japanese.
Veganism. Day 2.
2nd March 2010
I am beginning to enjoy this diet. (I am reluctant to call it a diet however, as I have not cut back on eating AT ALL!) Last night was the first night in a long time I didnt go to bed feeling too full, or like my tummy was bulging with unnecessary sugary snacks, which I know I only eat for comfort - rarely do they ever keep me happy for more than 5 minutes. (however, those 5 minutes I do admit are spent in delirium, and at the time are TOTALLY worth it!) Maybe it's because it's Spring and the sun is shining and I actually felt warm on my way to uni this morning, or maybe it is this healthy feeling (Porridge, Bananas and Lemsip for Breakfast - I WILL shift this flu bug in no time!) but for the first time in a few weeks I have woken up energised and feeling proactive. (I realise that's ridiculous after only one day of healthy eating. so therefore it must be the weather. but whatever - I'm feeling good!) And as I sit in the Library, armed with this weeks novel (Orlando - Virginia Woolf) and a Soya and Linseed bread sandwich (salad, houmous and falafel filling) with an orange for pudding, I feel ever so slightly smug and happy with myself. In your face philadelphia and dairy milk - I can do this!
Evening: 2 trays of roasted vegetables later, i'm set for the week. i'm sure that after this the sight of another roast vegetable will send me shivering to bed with fear and contempt. but for now, bring them on! I've discovered fruit tea is definately the way forward. I havn't had a single drop, teaspoon lick, smell, of caffeine today, for what must be the first day in years, and i've made it wide awake to 12am and still going strong. theres much more to be said for this fruit'n'veg lark than people think.
Tomorrow I am going out for lunch. I couldn't bear to turn down being taking out for lunch not even as a true patriot to my cause. So for the sake of being honest with others, and therefore with myself, i believe the veganism will have to go on a short hiatus, I just don't want to look picky. or as my housemate suggested, 'a cheap date' - I'm going for the lobster!
I am beginning to enjoy this diet. (I am reluctant to call it a diet however, as I have not cut back on eating AT ALL!) Last night was the first night in a long time I didnt go to bed feeling too full, or like my tummy was bulging with unnecessary sugary snacks, which I know I only eat for comfort - rarely do they ever keep me happy for more than 5 minutes. (however, those 5 minutes I do admit are spent in delirium, and at the time are TOTALLY worth it!) Maybe it's because it's Spring and the sun is shining and I actually felt warm on my way to uni this morning, or maybe it is this healthy feeling (Porridge, Bananas and Lemsip for Breakfast - I WILL shift this flu bug in no time!) but for the first time in a few weeks I have woken up energised and feeling proactive. (I realise that's ridiculous after only one day of healthy eating. so therefore it must be the weather. but whatever - I'm feeling good!) And as I sit in the Library, armed with this weeks novel (Orlando - Virginia Woolf) and a Soya and Linseed bread sandwich (salad, houmous and falafel filling) with an orange for pudding, I feel ever so slightly smug and happy with myself. In your face philadelphia and dairy milk - I can do this!
Evening: 2 trays of roasted vegetables later, i'm set for the week. i'm sure that after this the sight of another roast vegetable will send me shivering to bed with fear and contempt. but for now, bring them on! I've discovered fruit tea is definately the way forward. I havn't had a single drop, teaspoon lick, smell, of caffeine today, for what must be the first day in years, and i've made it wide awake to 12am and still going strong. theres much more to be said for this fruit'n'veg lark than people think.
Tomorrow I am going out for lunch. I couldn't bear to turn down being taking out for lunch not even as a true patriot to my cause. So for the sake of being honest with others, and therefore with myself, i believe the veganism will have to go on a short hiatus, I just don't want to look picky. or as my housemate suggested, 'a cheap date' - I'm going for the lobster!
March Resolutions
Bits from my book (2)
Now my belief is that this poet who never wrote a word and was buried at the cross-roads stil lives. She lives in you and me, and in many other women who are not here tonight, for they are washing up the dishes and putting the children to bed. But she lives; for great poets do not die; they are continuing preences; they need only the opportunity to walk among as in the flesh. This opportunity, as I think, it is now coming within your power to give her. For my belief is that if we live another century or so - I am talking of the common life which is the real life and not of the little seperate lives which we live as individuals - and have five hundred a year each of us and rooms of our own; if we have the habit of freedom and the courage to write exactly what we think; if we escape from the common sitting-room and see human beings not always in their relation to eachother but in relation to reality; and the sky, too, and the trees or whatever it may be in them selves; if we look past Milton's bogy, for no human being should shut out the view; if we face the fact, for it is a fact, that there is no arm to cling to, but that we go alone and that our relation is to the world of reality and not only to the world of men and women, then the opportuinity will come, and the dead poet who was Shakespeare's sister will put on the body which she has so often laid down. Drawing her life from the lives of the unknown who were her forerunners, as her brother did before her, she will be born.
-From A Room of One's Own - Virginia Woolf. (Essays on Feminism, and the subject of Women's Writing)
-From A Room of One's Own - Virginia Woolf. (Essays on Feminism, and the subject of Women's Writing)
Veganism. Day 1.
1st March 2010
-Today is officially my first day of a meat-free, dairy-free, honey-free, tree-hugging, bare-footed lifestyle. Whilst I have been talking about this quest, (and yes, I will call it a quest as I am praying for some form of fulfillment at the end of the two weeks) for a long time, entering into it has been something I have approached with much trepidation. I realise it is quite an absurd challenge, the differing responses I have received have definately confirmed this, from those who find it interesting (usually already some form of vegetarian) to those who have crinkled their noses, raised their eyebrows and said 'WHY?!' - with that tone of voice that is only ever reserved for those who don't care much for exploring other options. (usually carnivorous beings who have previously questioned my meat-free diet).
I feel it is necessary to state that I 100% understand why people eat meat, I would never argue against hunter/gatherer human instincts, 'it's natural for humans to eat meat, we are animals, part of the food chain' etc etc, or that it tastes good - I often miss sausage sandwiches, and the smell of spaghetti bolognaise brings me pangs of school-dinner nostalgia. My argument is not so much against the ethics of EATING animals, (or now, being vegan, eating animal products) but more against the ethics of the way in which the animals are REARED, and therefore meat is PRODUCED.
In taking on Veganism, I am attempting to understand the reasoning and ethics behind it; how milk, cheese and egg production is often as cruel to the animal/s in question as is the way in which it is slaughtered. How it is important to eat locally to cut on air-mile costs. One of my main concerns regarding meat-eating, (I'm not sure if this solely applies to the UK, but I very much doubt it) is that much of the meat in meat products, chicken burgers, pies etc. rarely comes from our own country, but is flown in from Thailand and other Asian countries, where let's face it, animal production and treatment is very unlikely to allow a gourmet, happy, healthy lifestyle for the poor poultry. The meat is often pumped with water, and therefore with chemicals to retain the water, before being flown thousands of miles to be put in a pie (which can then be advertised as a 'British Pie' due to loopholes in the Law). How's that for a massive increase on your carbon footprint? - As for the argument concerning money saving tactics, there are usually ways to avoid this. I have a market near where I live, selling local produce for probably 1/5 of supermarket prices (including Asda!), so really, for me, there is no excuse, as I'm sure there isn't for many people around our country-there are always ways of finding good, 'happy' produce.
So anyway. Here is the beginning of my two week diary. Bloody typical I decided to start the day after my housemate's Dad donated an extremely large Thornton selection box to the house.
-Today is officially my first day of a meat-free, dairy-free, honey-free, tree-hugging, bare-footed lifestyle. Whilst I have been talking about this quest, (and yes, I will call it a quest as I am praying for some form of fulfillment at the end of the two weeks) for a long time, entering into it has been something I have approached with much trepidation. I realise it is quite an absurd challenge, the differing responses I have received have definately confirmed this, from those who find it interesting (usually already some form of vegetarian) to those who have crinkled their noses, raised their eyebrows and said 'WHY?!' - with that tone of voice that is only ever reserved for those who don't care much for exploring other options. (usually carnivorous beings who have previously questioned my meat-free diet).
I feel it is necessary to state that I 100% understand why people eat meat, I would never argue against hunter/gatherer human instincts, 'it's natural for humans to eat meat, we are animals, part of the food chain' etc etc, or that it tastes good - I often miss sausage sandwiches, and the smell of spaghetti bolognaise brings me pangs of school-dinner nostalgia. My argument is not so much against the ethics of EATING animals, (or now, being vegan, eating animal products) but more against the ethics of the way in which the animals are REARED, and therefore meat is PRODUCED.
In taking on Veganism, I am attempting to understand the reasoning and ethics behind it; how milk, cheese and egg production is often as cruel to the animal/s in question as is the way in which it is slaughtered. How it is important to eat locally to cut on air-mile costs. One of my main concerns regarding meat-eating, (I'm not sure if this solely applies to the UK, but I very much doubt it) is that much of the meat in meat products, chicken burgers, pies etc. rarely comes from our own country, but is flown in from Thailand and other Asian countries, where let's face it, animal production and treatment is very unlikely to allow a gourmet, happy, healthy lifestyle for the poor poultry. The meat is often pumped with water, and therefore with chemicals to retain the water, before being flown thousands of miles to be put in a pie (which can then be advertised as a 'British Pie' due to loopholes in the Law). How's that for a massive increase on your carbon footprint? - As for the argument concerning money saving tactics, there are usually ways to avoid this. I have a market near where I live, selling local produce for probably 1/5 of supermarket prices (including Asda!), so really, for me, there is no excuse, as I'm sure there isn't for many people around our country-there are always ways of finding good, 'happy' produce.
So anyway. Here is the beginning of my two week diary. Bloody typical I decided to start the day after my housemate's Dad donated an extremely large Thornton selection box to the house.
- First morning coffee with soya milk - surprisingly tasty, comparable to a rather cold and less satisfying Hazlenut Latte (skinny of course, i went for 2% fat soya milk!) Following this, I had a rather oddly couloured bowl of apple and raisin porridge made with Soya milk, slightly cardboardy, but golden syrup sorted this out. - will i really have to disguise all flavours with heaps of sugar to cope with this?! - My teeth may have fallen out, but at least two weeks worth of environment will have been saved! Alarmingly, the time is now 15.36, and I have made it the morning and the afternoon with barely a pang of hunger. perhaps this is the way forward after all!
I have just discovered JUST how expensive being a vegan is, albeit, i did do my weekly shop in sainsburys (where usually I'd do Asda) but come on...£40 on pretty much fruit and vegetables! - no wonder I can name more celebrity vegans than 'real people'! However, my first Vegan supper was particularly scrummy - Spiced Morroccan couscous, with roasted vegetables, my favourite, and falafal bites, with a slight sprinkling of my new favourite (if not for its slightly 'off parmesan' flavour, then for its hilarious name 'Cheddareese' - i mean, come on!) cheese. Yum. I don't think this will be bad at all. and on the plus side, the only snack i've had today is a Ryvita, where usually I would have had chocolate, biscuits, or some such unforgiving delight.
Not Bad!
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